커넥츠 스피킹

yesterday, i thought i need to take a relax. so i didn`t get a part time job. except of studying, i don`t know how to use my time effectively. it is like a i am forget to take a relax. so, i was sitting on the floor. i just watched some of tv show or drama without thinking and vacantly. but i have a only one thing that thank god. i don`t feel worried and nervous anymore when i take a relax. i felt nervous to be rest time before. i got always under the pressure something when i`m in rest. it is exhausted. anyway, i don`t remember the story of TV show. there is no story in my head and some impression. when i was younger than now, i had favoriated TV show. however, they don`t get any feeling anymore. whenever i am watching the TV show, i think i don`t have emotion in my face. it is like a back ground music. so, Every time i do something such as reading books, play game and other. i always turn on the TV. and i don`t watching TV. my sight don`t head to TV. but i don`t know how to use my time. i did work out, part time job, study, and meet my friend. i think it is not effectively use the time. Ah... i don`t want to use effectively. just use my time funny. whant am i gonna do now?. i don`t know what should i do to make a fun for me. it is under press to find a fun what i want. to be honest, i was decided to not study today. but as soon as i wake up, i did turn on the laptop and sit down on the chair automatically. i realized what i am behavior but i give up that not to study. and i did hit my cheek through my hand. after that, i went to the gym. even though i had many exercising set left. i don`t have any energy go on to work out. came back my place and writing diary.