커넥츠 스피킹

i am really exhausted and annoyed. because i couldn't pick up a game item in the game. only my friends picked up a game item except me. i know that it depends on just lucky. but it doesn't go my mind. how could it happen to me. i couldn`t concentrate on the study. it staies on my head and bother to me while i study. after writing diary, i will study to watch the lecture. but i am not sure how dare i concentrate on that. to be honest, while i am writing now, i can`t focus on here. on the other side of my head, i still remain. i think that i lose my passionation to play the game.

i will reduce the play time on a half. for the time being, maybe i don`t think that come up with playing the game. it's time for reality check. the game is not as much as good thing for my mental. it break out totally my mental. i just try to hold on my mental. but i always failed now. i can't believe that the game is devestating my mental. because i thought i am really keeping my mental very well. but it is not. just only small one thing was happened but i couldn't control very well. of course, it doesn't related with my life anything. because it is just piece of the data. i just could move on to other side on my mind. however i can`t move on to other place. after finished study, i will go to take a time for meditation to heal my mental. Actually, i don't know what i write now. i just follow my train of thought. in the meantime, i did really enjoy playing the game with my friends. but just only i can`t pick up game item because i don`t have any the lucky. i can`t have power to play the game today. so, i just dropped out of the game as soon as finished. and in order to that i forget the fact, i am starting the study. fortunately, i am just by doing that tell my story here. i can recovery my mental graduately. i think that i know why many people have a time to talk with other people. just by doing tell or write, i make a my mental strongly. i can study it very well now after that. i have a strong mental at almost of the end diary. almost i didrecovery. Let me study harder now. there is no an obstruation on my way now.